Girls Just Want to Have Fun

in cherry

blossom season in

my handheld

game i spent

a lot of

time catching

petals in a

net and tilting

my little head because

this is a game

where you get points for

wishing on a star they

gamified hope

and i bought it

and real space is

full of junk metal and dead dogs

imagine

rejecting something

then letting it circle you forever

couldn’t be me

it’s funny how the earth can’t

let anything go

i think that’s supposed

to be comforting

i can change

and if i want

what i had whatever

i used to be is always

there the text

the bad habit

hit save

every day i wake up and

think i’ll be better

and then i’m not it’s

fire season and

i want to tell you

i love you by talking

shit on someone else

my beautiful friends

every day

i wake up ruining

i didn’t know that i could

watch the end

of the world

from my house

through a digital

cloudless night

sometimes i ride

my bike at sunset

because a sunset

always looks like

an apocalypse

and because

presence is

its own rapture

when every moment

beats down the one

before it right

in front of you

i guess the joke is that we all

go out breathless

but i want

to be breathless

up the mountain when

we smoke our

separate joints and

i start to think we

might not be

so different from museums

that idea of eternity

defined by stasis like

those portraits of dogs

that went to space

on the mountain

it’s hard not to

look at the

dark and think

someone put us here to die

but if one

of us is sad we

drive to the valley or

we give each other tattoos or

talk about the moon or

drink in the kiddie pool

and all the museums are closed

but i can look at high-res

images online

of bernini’s ecstasy

of saint teresa

(white marble, 1647-1652)

and wonder what it’s liketo get fucked by god

not in the parking ticket way

or the insurance way

or the he said

sorry but he did it again way

i mean fucked

i mean liking it

i can change

i want to be

the magician’s assistant

i mean i want to be the doves

me and my friends are god's

girlfriends that way

we laugh about

who’s getting screwed better

laughing but also

jealous i wish

i was a silk scarf

changing into a rose

in their hands

i want to be the bunny

pulled from eternity

to applause my friends

in another life will take me

dancing put

my hair behind

my ear put the powder

on my tongue oh god i miss

the bathrooms most

the sweat and the shittalk

and the pillowtalk i miss

the squint of infinity

we give each other

when someone

is being a dumbass

hit save

of course the magic

of the bunny is

the bunny

lives underground

in the dark of

the hat of the warren

of the plan or the mystery

of my bedroom in the morning

when i am alive again

and filled with dread

(saint teresa running

her hands over

her body, different somehow)

the bunny makes

space for itself

it confronts

the infinite earth

and finds a way

like the space between

the blow and the pain

i think that’s what life is

my friends and i

laugh and laugh

we want to be the bunny

because we’re tired

of being the dirt

when my friend

unwraps the needle

and i say give me

a shooting star

i'm saying we are soft things

in a maze of darkness and

part of me

stupidly thought

this wasn’t it and

i'm so sorry but

i'm so glad to

burn out with you

IN ORDER OF APPEARANCE

• Spice World
• D.E.B.S.
• Practical Magic
• Bring It On
• Girl, Interrupted
• Steel Magnolias
• Coyote Ugly
• The Babysitter’s Club
• Hocus Pocus
• Little Women
• Priscilla Queen of the Desert
• Parent Trap
• Charlie’s Angels
• Kill Bill
• Thelma & Louise
• Grease
• Ghost World
• Daria
• Clueless
• It Takes Two
• Girls Just Want to Have Fun

• Legally Blonde
• First Wives Club
• Heathers
• Mermaids
• Sleeping Beauty
• Pride & Prejudice
• To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Newmar
• The Joy Luck Club
• The Witches of Eastwick
• Crossroads
• Now & Then
• Sister Act
• The Craft
• The Long Goodbye
• A League of Their Own
• Even Cowgirls Get the Blues
• Showgirls
• Shag
• Valley Girl
• Cry Baby
• Fast Times At Ridgemont High
• Mulan